Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Rolling the Comedy Gutter Ball


Two bombing stories in a row! Can you tell I haven't had my Wheaties?

Yesterday, I was slated to perform at Caroline's for The World Series of Stand-up. Unfortunately the show was cancelled. Fortunately, I dodged my own bullet. I have had such a bad attitude about performing lately, that I was convinced I would fail. I was toying with the idea of going on stage and just playing recorded music from the last time I was put on hold by tech support.

Every time I have gone up I have lost to whoever I was pitted against. I felt the same as when I was six, and went bowling with my family. So many of my balls had veered into the gutter, that on my next turn, I saved the ball the trouble and deposited it directly to the gutter THEN rolled it. My parents scolded me for being a spoiled sport and a quitter, which just made me feel worse.

The lesson I did not learn then, that I am supposed to learn now, is that failure is not trying. So did I fail since I did not have to try? I pondered this dilemma by eating a Cinnabon for dinner.

5 comments:

Thomas Pryor said...

all the miserable doubt you go through is worth it when you come out the other side, you know that, abbi, see a mid day movie quick, always works for me, feel better, tommy

Abbi Crutchfield said...

A mid-day movie! I like the sound of that. Thanks Tommy! I always feel better after I've complained to the Universe.

Chris said...

Well, if you just want to feel better, I hear heroin is slightly better than a mid-day movie.

Granted, I have never done heroin... But I did watch Transformers at a matinee. Sigh, you live with your mistakes....

Abbi Crutchfield said...

Is this about your misery or mine? Let's not lose focus here! (Sheesh, some people are SO self-absorbed...)

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